Knowing when it is time to say goodbye.

How do you know when it is time to say goodbye to a part of your family? Do you let her suffer just to put your mind at ease? Do you try to hang on to every bit of time you can? Or is it better just to let go? How do you know? These are questions I have been asking myself for a few months. My beautiful sweet loving dog Brownie has not been doing well. She is 12 years old. But she is such a good dog. She listens so well, never has bitten any of the girls, never got on my bed or furniture. You could leave the gate open and she would not leave the yard. I could take her on car trips and she would sit in her seat just like a kid. I could take her on walks with out a lead, she wouldn't run off. I could leave her all day in the house and come home late and there would be no messes on my floor. She would listen to commands like Sit, Speak, Lay Down and preform for you. She would let you know if someone would come to the house before they would ring the door bell. She would greet people politely never jumping on them. She loved to play fetch and chase. She could catch popcorn like crazy. She hated water and would not go outside if it was raining with out you going with her. She loved to be petted on and would just let you rub her head till the hair fell out if you would. She is a great companion. When the girls were babies and they would cry she would get very upset if I didn't take care of them right away. She would lay in the girls room with them while they slept keeping watch over them. Is it fair of me wanting to hang on to these things and not let go? I was raised in a house that a pet is family. You love them like they are part of your life. So when is it time to say goodbye? A dog can't tell you how much pain they are in. They can't say "Hey I don't feel well." These are things that you have to determine. So this week I will be taking Brownie to the vet to see just how much longer I can hang on to my loving sweet Brownie.

TGIF

Awwww its Friday. Yea for Friday. I love Friday. I usually go to Woods on Fridays but tonight he is taking the grandsons to a hunters education course. So I will be hanging here at the hell hole trying to stay out of Dipshits way. Tomorrow I am going to Woods. Yea for Saturday. I love Saturdays.

Sometimes I wonder if politicians have any sort of brains. First let me say that the state of Illinois is flat ass broke. The start of the school year in Chicago saw protest of state funding. Which by the way they get the same per student as the school that my child is in from the state. Parents are upset that the schools are underfunded, old falling apart school buildings, over crowded, old materials etc. and they have a right to be. Now I hear that Chicago schools are going to pay children for good grades. Where the hell is the money going to come from? A child can earn as much as $4000.00 in a school year, $50 for a A. Why not put this money back into school? Why not reward these children with college educations? Why not tell these kids that if you make a 3.5 grade point avage that you can attend college and get a degree? Why not give these kids something to work for in the future? Give them a way out of the slums of the city? Or are these politicians to scared that if they do that these kids might have enough brains to see that politicians are all idoits.

What a Weekend

Most weekends I spend with Wood in Indiana. I pack the van while the girls are in school with things that they want and overnight bags so we can hit the road as soon as they get home. I know that I will always hit the weekend traffic so I want to get on the road early and get the heck out of town. That is not always the way things go. Here is just a sample of what I deal with.

3:30 - Pick Sarah up at school. Kathrina rides her bike so she will meet us at the house.

3:40 - Waiting for Kathrina to get home. Still not home.

3:45 - Kathrina finally home, bike chain broken. Okay no big deal fix that on Monday.

3:50 - Sarah is hungry. Fix her a quick snack.

3:55 - Kathrina wants to bring her dog with us. This is not possible.

3:56 - Kathrina has a melt down.

4:15 - After talking with her father and asking him can she stay here with him and him saying that no he is busy she finally gets in the van.

4:20 - Start to pull out of the driveway

4:21 - Pull back in Sarah forgot to go to the bathroom.

4:30- Finally on the road call Wood and let him know that we are on our way.



After getting on to I80 and traveling about 10 miles I hit backup. For some damn reason so idiot form IDOT thought that it would be a great idea to put in a new toll way connecting the northwest suburbs of Chicago to the southwest suburbs and not adding a new lane to handle all the new traffic. We are backup from Joilet to Mokena. About 20 miles. I finally get out of that traffic and it is smooth sailing to the exit for Woods.



We get to Woods about 6:30 and put on pizza's for dinner. Friday night is always pizza night. We settle in for a night of SciFi.



I will write more about the weekend later.

A Bit About Me

I am a mother of three girls, Danielle 23, Kathrina 10, and Sarah 6. I am currently seperated but still living with Dipshit. I am looking for work but have yet to find anything. I have someone very special named Wood that I try to spend as much time as I can with. I like to read, cook, garden, and raise my girls. There are times that I want to pull out my hair and scream. As they say screaming is good. My girls are my life. Danielle is in college doing a double major for secondary education and science. Kathrina is in fourth grade and is discovering boys. Sarah is in first grade and makes me laugh all the time.